I’m here…
Yes, I am still alive. I think. I haven’t blogged in the last 2 days because I have been very busy and on the brink of a nervous break down.Last night after I had finally got the kids to bed I just laid on my bed unable to move from being so emotionally and physically drained. I just couldn’t bring myself to even blog (my usual therapy) because I didn’t want to rehash the problems or try to think of something else to blog about when the problems were really the only thing on my mind.
Nothing is overly wrong, just the same old stuff and that’s the problem. I know my situation is really hard to understand unless you were living my life and I have already been bashed from someone who thinks they know a solution, but is so far off base its humorous. A. I have briefly mentioned some problems with her in the past and don’t feel comfortable getting into them now, but things that are going on with her right now are such a disappointment and really getting me down. To some, it may seem silly that a child can cause so much stress, but this is me and my shoes and its very real. I had hoped that my concerted efforts to start her in a new school with a fresh start would help some of the problems, but like every year around this time she is back into her old swing of raising hell. I honestly can’t imagine dealing with this for another whole year again or even another week. We have tried several therapist, methods, etc, etc, but nothing seems to work. I am just immobilized with the daunting task of taking care of her…. There is so much weight and baggage surrounding this issue, I can’t even begin…
Anyway, I am here. I am alive (somewhat) and should be returning to you all shortly in my usual sarcastic, ranting sort of way… until then, please don’t write me off….
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10 Responses to “I’m here…”
October 19th, 2005 at 1:09 pm
This might be well off the mark with regard to your own situation but it is well known in the UK that the general points in this article are factual. If nothing else it might be a good starting point to take nutritional factors out of the equation.
http://www.mirror.co.uk/sexandhealth/slimmingandhealth/tm_objectid=14299762&method=full&siteid=94762&headline=e-numbers–tame-your-tearaway-name_page.html
October 19th, 2005 at 2:12 pm
Like you said it’s hard to undersatnd but does she have some problems?? Maybe you can have her tested. I have a young cousin who has some mental/emotional issues. She’s like 8 and has to take medication for them. It’s a chemical embalance or something.
I could be way off….but it could be a thought.
Good luck, i hope things get better ok.
October 19th, 2005 at 3:49 pm
Crystal, It’s rare that a child of that age isn’t bouncing around the room full of energy.
From what you put in your comment it actually sounds like depression. Unusual in someone so young but not unknown.
I assume she’s been seen by a doctor, at least to rule out any actual physical causes?
October 19th, 2005 at 4:43 pm
Am sorry things not good with you at the moment hun and am afraid i have no advice to offer, i truly wish i did.
All i will say is if you feel like a rant to a good listener then catch me on msn and am happy to listen if thats any help at all/
Chin up hun, i’ll be thinking of you xxx
October 20th, 2005 at 12:10 am
Hey there. I don’t have any words of advice, just wanted to say that I will not write you off and that I sincerely hope that things get better soon. {{{Hugs}}} -Jen
October 20th, 2005 at 6:51 am
Oh Sweetie, would never write you off. Sad to know that you have to deal with what sounds like an unplesant situation. Happy to know we will have you back. Wish I could drive up to Tampa right now just to sit with you…but I’ll have to send you some virtual hugs instead. Take Care luv!
October 20th, 2005 at 11:14 am
was wonderin what was goin on. i went through sort of the same thing when my husband son came for a visit, it was two years ago, he hasnt’ been back since, i feel bad about the way i feel, but i dont know? its weird. i could probably handle it better now though, since hes been here once.
October 20th, 2005 at 1:42 pm
Awww.. bless you hun… sounds like you need a does of TLC!!
Interestingly enough, reading your blog, it sounds like you ought to be saying these words to Alisia… do you think it might help?
You manage to put across your sense of frustration so eloquently that surely she’d have to listen??
I’m no parent and it probably bloody well shows… just kick me… I know nothing!!
FoX
October 20th, 2005 at 4:33 pm
I’m so sorry that you are having a hard time with your step daughter. I obviously don’t know your child, but do know how hard it is to handle difficult children (see today’s post LOL) it is completely exhausting and has me completely at my wits end. I hope you work through her issues and get back to feeling like your sweet self. At least my problem child goes home at night.
October 23rd, 2005 at 6:40 am
hey girl! I’m so sorry to hear that it’s not really working out for you! I really hope you find a whole bunch of good karma on your way soon!
Take care and I’ll burn you a candle on wednesday for the research!