My new year’s resolutions seem to always encompass a theme. Last year’s was peace. I have accomplished some of what I had set out to do:

• peace within myself be more accepting of who I am
• peace within my home through better organization- I have completely revamped our budgeting process and it is working great!
• peace with our extended family- some amends have been made
• peace within our country & community- I have made a greater effort to campaign and volunteer for the things I believe would help bring peace
• achieved a dream of getting a paid writing gig

The things I still need to work on and didn’t quite accomplish:

• still need more organization & cleaning in our home
• still need to get on top of the health issues ( I did have one appt this morning so I am off to a good start)
• still have some extended family issues that need to be resolved
• get more paid writing assignments

This year’s theme is a bit different. I still want to work on all the above items, but with a twist. I am a serious person and honestly, I like that about me. I am always thinking, analyzing, planning etc. Overall I am a geek. If you want something done or organized, I am your person. I get it done and usually a few days early because I am the exact opposite of a procrastinator.

One thing I am not widely known for is fun.

Somewhere along the way in mommyhood I have seemed to lost my spirit of fun. I want to get down on the floor more and play with my kids and not always be looking for the educational value I can teach them. I want to play more Wii and smile. I want to host parties (and not just kid’s b-day parties). I want to go out more with my friends, hear more live music and do things just because I think they will be fun.

Some of this will be very difficult to do because we are also in the process of becoming completely debt free, but I think it is the spirit in which I want to live my life as opposed to how many activities I actually do.

This all may sound a bit selfish, but it really is not. I have stopped living my own life in the last few years and made it all about everyone else. In turn, I have not been as happy or refreshed as I could be. I think if I take some time to do things that make me happy, then everyone else around me will be a little happier. We all know if mama ain’t happy, then nobody ain’t happy.

I took the first step yesterday. I met my friends (and their kids) in the morning for a playdate. Usually around noon I bid them adieu and rush home to accomplish my long to do list. Instead I stayed for lunch and kept hanging out until late in the afternoon. I had a great time, my kids had a great time and nothing got done at my house. And better yet? The universe did not explode because I didn’t get anything done.

Don’t get too excited, I still plan in posting my serious thoughts and pleas for action and awareness on issues. My belief is balance is key. wu wei (The aim of wu wei is to achieve a state of perfect equilibrium.) I don’t want to change who I am; I just want to go with the flow and enhance what I already got.

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